Monday.
Clarification is requested and will be given.
Clarification:
1. I agreed on everything you said for everything is true.
2. I did not say you judged me wrongly one single bit because you didn't.
3. This incident does matter to me.
4. You are not just a friend.
5. You will never be just a friend.
Circumstances you ought to know:
1. I never express love the way you dreamed.
2. I never express care the way you expected.
3. I never express gratitude the way you wanted.
4. I don't know what is going on in your life.
5. I speak to "just friends" online for less than 30 minutes.
6. I speak to "good friends" online for unlimited duration.
And that's being me. Not that I am arrogant. I tried to change. But that's just me. I'm partially autistic. I do not initiate a chat out of boredom, out of free time, out of care, out of love..(only CY does that.)
I am always alone. I do not indulge myself around with hooha figures. I am always invisible but that doesn't mean I am unavailable. A msg that pops out will be returned with a reply more often than not. I don't know what other things you expect of me because everything in my brain has been squeezed out. I am just not that kind of person you're seeking for. You need a person who is very quick to response, full with surprises, ideas, always on the line..etc.
You said I am strong, you're weak. You said I don't treasure friendships, but you do. You said I know that you can be counted on any moment of my life, but you can't count on me..and the list goes on. I will say 'YES' to all of them. I am strong for I've been through deeper shits. I treasure friendships, but I can never indulge deep into it. I can count on you for you made that sacrifice for me. And I know it. Thing is, I do not know how to say thanks than just 'thanks'.
Given the fact that you do face a problem with a non-responsive jerk, the ball is really on your side to choose whether you want to continue receiving non-impressive superficial feedbacks. I don't see the point of exerting a 180 swift change and revert back to the old self after a week. I don't do fakes.
It happened before and it happened again. You couldn't accept it before and now, again. I couldn't change it again and, again. And this cycle keeps repeating itself like the four seasons. So how do we expect to move on from here?
I couldn't help but just say how sorry I am for not knowing one single thing that happened over there. Pardon me for everything. I tried and it didn't work. Will keep trying but don't expect much from it.
A friendship application has been filled by me. But I added this "I really can't give much." It is for you to process the application. Do let me know the status of my application.
Clarification:
1. I agreed on everything you said for everything is true.
2. I did not say you judged me wrongly one single bit because you didn't.
3. This incident does matter to me.
4. You are not just a friend.
5. You will never be just a friend.
Circumstances you ought to know:
1. I never express love the way you dreamed.
2. I never express care the way you expected.
3. I never express gratitude the way you wanted.
4. I don't know what is going on in your life.
5. I speak to "just friends" online for less than 30 minutes.
6. I speak to "good friends" online for unlimited duration.
And that's being me. Not that I am arrogant. I tried to change. But that's just me. I'm partially autistic. I do not initiate a chat out of boredom, out of free time, out of care, out of love..(only CY does that.)
I am always alone. I do not indulge myself around with hooha figures. I am always invisible but that doesn't mean I am unavailable. A msg that pops out will be returned with a reply more often than not. I don't know what other things you expect of me because everything in my brain has been squeezed out. I am just not that kind of person you're seeking for. You need a person who is very quick to response, full with surprises, ideas, always on the line..etc.
You said I am strong, you're weak. You said I don't treasure friendships, but you do. You said I know that you can be counted on any moment of my life, but you can't count on me..and the list goes on. I will say 'YES' to all of them. I am strong for I've been through deeper shits. I treasure friendships, but I can never indulge deep into it. I can count on you for you made that sacrifice for me. And I know it. Thing is, I do not know how to say thanks than just 'thanks'.
Given the fact that you do face a problem with a non-responsive jerk, the ball is really on your side to choose whether you want to continue receiving non-impressive superficial feedbacks. I don't see the point of exerting a 180 swift change and revert back to the old self after a week. I don't do fakes.
It happened before and it happened again. You couldn't accept it before and now, again. I couldn't change it again and, again. And this cycle keeps repeating itself like the four seasons. So how do we expect to move on from here?
I couldn't help but just say how sorry I am for not knowing one single thing that happened over there. Pardon me for everything. I tried and it didn't work. Will keep trying but don't expect much from it.
A friendship application has been filled by me. But I added this "I really can't give much." It is for you to process the application. Do let me know the status of my application.
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